bad as they seem...

i feel like I'm standing on my head and trying to keep up with things. I have no real idea what is going on. I skipped all my Intro sessions today... slept twelve or more hours last night.... wandered around town today, trying to buy stuff for the apartment, paid half my rent. Bought my english textbooks. Dropped a course. Need to pick another somehow. Called my parents... bitched at my poor dad then cried on the backporch. Hungry, dont feel like cooking anything. Going to the spill. Worried that making new friends will prove more difficult than I originally thought...

I'm going to make a coffee. I picked up twenty nine brochures for clubs today, maybe all I need to do is tap into smaller communities... at the moment I feel like a number adrift among hundreds of other numbers.

shrug. I'm going to east side marios with Des and rick and Dan... maybe we will all eat tomatoes.